Today is a very important day. Ten years ago today, I began the process of allowing self to return to me. The change was so immediate and dramatic that I was able to look back within days and identify exactly when it started. Many people may recognize my “online name” as 10YearsGone. I was fondly called “10” in a forum where I made some great friends (who I am still in contact with!) I also have Twitter/email/Instagram etc. accounts using that name. What then makes today so special is that I am now 10YearsBACK!
The path has been multifaceted and some elements were taken on and eventually discarded. Other things so dramatically changed my life that it will effect me for the rest of my years. I thought that maybe I would make a long, extended post about everything that has happened, but at this moment, it doesn’t seem right. Instead, I am just going to make a list of the things that occurred, in no particular order.
reconnected deeply with my sisters
met new people
left my husband
traveled alone
lost significant weight
managed serious financial difficulties
had music nourish my soul
turned 50
made the first move
saw 333 concerts (seriously, that exact number as of today)
had my heart broken
gotten three tattoos
made new IRL friends
went abroad twice
started weightlifting
wrote for a music website
cared too much
cared too little
traveled with my sisters
learned to draw and paint
developed my ability to connect with strangers
obsessed over bands
gave up sugar
refinanced my house solo
ventured into the dating world
dipped my toe into working outside the home
took my children on a significant vacation on my own
started a blog
regained balance
fell in love
let go of what life is supposed to look like
We are nothing without our friends and family to support us. I have been so many places with so many people and each and every one of them are precious to me. I never would have been able to accomplish so much, to change so thoroughly, to become more happy and whole without you people in my life. Thank you for all the things we’ve done and seen, the secrets we have shared, the excitement we have built, the steady support you have given, and the promise of more to come.
I am ten years back and I will never go away again.